I can nearly uncontrolled myself

Friends ...to tell you the truth ..my life has change so much ...i did cried ....this hold day ...but i didn't blame anyone alright ? No body's wrong ~ I am wrong ....I did mistakes which i hide my Mom and Dad from knowing that i gone to CF ... It was my last look at the Church ..I started to cried ...I choose to go ..nobody ask me to go . I pick my own decision , I SACRIFICE MYSELF TO GO TO CF ..JUST TO LEARN MORE ABOUT GOD

Sara ,

I am honestly really am sorry for what i did this whole week ...It really change my life how i did . But ...don't go Emo again alright ? Even though i am not in CF for the rest of the year .. Maybe i should have been punish ..I don't know ..because i did bad things to my families , to you and friends either ... ask someone to take my duty as a treasurer = ) Be happy as good as new ^^

Phoebe ,

If you are here ...i guess ....i fail to go on my life learning more about god ...i ....i....didn't listen to your words ..i should not have gone to church every Friday ...I am so weak ...I am so sad ....this hold week ..but ...i can't give up ...I wont give up ! No matter what happens ..i will try my best to go again ...By the way , hope you enjoy the Hill song concert ^^

Till now ...i have no direction ...I try to comfort myself to not be a sad person ...alright ? Is been 7 months i have been going to CF , is awesome . IS not the time for me to become a christian yet , maybe ..when i am 21 years old ? or maybe a year younger . I try my best to impress my families so that i can head on my own decision

I just hope God could listen to my calls since i pray every single day